February 2012
11 posts
January 2012
6 posts
November 2011
8 posts
October 2011
10 posts
Today myPie turns 21. Wow, 21!
I remember the day you were born - tugged and pullled out of the sanctuary that was my womb. I remember how blue you were; your APGAR Scale rating (both numbers), and how afraid I was that your lungs could’ve been damaged when you were born. How sick I was - so sick that I didn’t get to be with you for the first 12 hours after you were born. And Daddy...
Dialogue of Belief
He: "It's not easy to believe."
She: "I," she told him, "can believe anything. You have no idea what I can believe."
He: "Really?"
She: "I can believe things that are true and I can believe things that aren't true and I can believe things where nobody knows if they're true or not. I can believe in Santa Claus and the Easter Bunny and Marilyn Monroe and the Beatles and Elvis and Mister Ed. Listen — I believe that people are perfectible, that knowledge is infinite, that the world is run by secret banking cartels and is visited by aliens on a regular basis, nice ones that look like wrinkledy lemurs and bad ones who mutilate cattle and want our water and our women. I believe that the future sucks and I believe that the future rocks and I believe that one day White Buffalo Woman is going to come back and kick everyone's ass. I believe that all men are just overgrown boys with deep problems communicating and that the decline in good sex in America is coincident with the decline in drive-in movie theaters from state to state. I believe that all politicians are unprincipled crooks and I still believe that they are better than the alternative. I believe that California is going to sink into the sea when the big one comes, while Florida is going to dissolve into madness and alligators and toxic waste. I believe that antibacterial soap is destroying our resistance to dirt and disease so that one day we'll all be wiped out by the common cold like the Martians in War of the Worlds. I believe that the greatest poets of the last century were Edith Sitwell and Don Marquis, that jade is dried dragon sperm, and that thousands of years ago in a former life I was a one-armed Siberian shaman. I believe that mankind's destiny lies in the stars. I believe that candy really did taste better when I was a kid, that it's aerodynamically impossible for a bumblebee to fly, that light is a wave and a particle, that there's a cat in a box somewhere who's alive and dead at the same time (although if they don't ever open the box to feed it it'll eventually just be two different kinds of dead), and that there are stars in the universe billions of years older than the universe itself. I believe in a personal god who cares about me and worries and oversees everything I do. I believe in an impersonal god who set the universe in motion and went off to hang with her girlfriends and doesn't even know that I'm alive. I believe in an empty and godless universe of causal chaos, background noise, and sheer blind luck. I believe that anyone who says that sex is overrated just hasn't done it properly. I believe that anyone who claims to know what's going on will lie about the little things too. I believe in absolute honesty and sensible social lies. I believe in a woman's right to choose, a baby's right to live, that while all human life is sacred there's nothing wrong with the death penalty if you can trust the legal system implicitly, and that no one but a moron would ever trust the legal system. I believe that life is a game, that life is a cruel joke, and that life is what happens when you're alive and that you might as well lie back and enjoy it."
He: "Okay. So if I tell you what I've learned you won't think that I'm a nut."
She: "Maybe, try me."
He: "Would you believe that all the gods that people have ever imagined are still with us today? ... And that there are new gods out there, gods of computers and telephones and whatever, and that they all seem to think there isn't room for them both in the world. And that some kind of war is kind of likely."
She: "Gods are great," she said. "But the heart is greater. For it is from our hearts they come, and to our hearts they shall return..."
Convo Between Shadow & Zorya Polunochnaya
"Which path should I take?" he asked. "Which one is safe?"
"Take one, and you cannot take the other," she said. "But neither path is safe. Which way would you walk — the way of hard truths or the way of fine lies?"
"Truths," he said. "I've come too far for more lies."
“All we have to believe with is our senses, the tools we use to perceive the...”
– American Gods, Chapter 6 - Neil Gaiman
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September 2011
4 posts
“An ancient creature, drenched in the blood of the innocent. Drifting in space...”
– The Doctor (The God Complex)
August 2011
12 posts
Missing You
Saw your truck today and it made me think of you …
… and I smiled …
… and a tear slipped past my eye
and down my cheek.
I do miss you.
